Pro. Crastination.

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I'm feeling really pumped up today which is surprising because I just came back from ballet practice + rehearsal + doing some weird sprints. So physically I should be exhausted. I should also be practicing the piano right now but I'm typing this post and eating M&S welsh cakes. Yummy. That right there my friends is an example of procrastination. 

I'd like to think I'm organised, but is that the truth?

i don't know, how do you measure someones' organisation? Idk, but i do know that I love keeping a planner and making schedules for myself and in that sense I am organised. However I don't necessarily follow them 100% of the time. Make it 80%. Perhaps 70% is more accurate. I of course have days where I just CAN'T BE BOTHERED and can everyone (uhm mum) just GET OFF MY BACK!!!! Everyone has those days (quote Hannah Montana ^.^ ) and its alright to feel like that. Especially in my life, I am constantly busy and on a schedule. I do ballet 6 times a week and get home around 9. Now add the massive amount of homework / assignments / tests we get everyday. And then, I have to practice the piano for about an hour. Gr8t life.

But to be honest, I do have a great life. There are people that have it so much worse than me. Even though I collapse into my bed almost everyday, I really love what I do! I think some times I take these things for granted and I really need to step back once in a while and just be grateful. (Yes I just ooze of cheese).

BACK on topic, I want to say that I am an extremely busy person and it is kind off necessary for me to be organised. Yes being organised is already in my nature, but I do have to make an effort everyday to balance everything. I just want to say that if you do know that you put the pro in procrastinate, I have the single most important tip for you. That actually works.. That'll be €15.99 folks. [I'm just joking around].

SO the tip is to delete all distractions. I am not even kidding. Very simple and quite obvious. If you know that you get distracted by apps on your phone or them constantly buzzing, either silent the notifications or delete the app. This is what I did (and no my mum did not force me, I actually came up with the idea) and I deleted twitter, facebook and instagram of my phone. I'm not asking you to delete your account, but just to delete the app. I found that I hardly went on these platforms on my laptop and just on my phone. I didn't actually "want" to go on the app, but just went on them because I needed a distraction. 

This same rule can apply to people. Honestly if you know that you have a friend that constantly distracts you why are you even studying with them. They might be great fun but at the end of the day don't lie to yourself by thinking you are honestly going to get any work done. I know that I don't study well with others and so I be honest and study by myself (like a loner). Yes it might not be as "fun" but you're there to get a job done. I think you shouldn't try to kid yourself. You are the only one who knows your body + mind and how it best works.

Okay so thats it I guess. Here's a song that I found that gets quite annoying some times but is great for your procrastination moments.

I wish that I was one of those bloggers with seriously cool pictures, but that's not the case with me. I am sorry. I'm working on it. 

Online Love

This is going to be a quick post as I really have to study for my science test tomorrow :/.

Cyber bullying is a topic everyone should be familiar with. Yet we are still victors and victims to it. Why?

Many have the misconception that cyber bullying is "trolling" or "hacking" someone. And yes, they are forms of cyber bullying. But there are also other minor forms that we see every time we log on to social media platforms. They are the "you're so ugly ahha just jk" and "you pig" and "ahaha wtf ur so weird" and "ahah you retard lol". Let's make things clear, adding a :) or jk or lol or ahhaahah DOES NOT make your comment any nicer.

I was thinking about this, and actually grew quite frustrated. This frustration actually motivated me to make some posters. Yes, weird connection but call it my "therapy".

You can see how my rant and my poster relate to each other.

Another poster I made is this beautiful one below. 

How gorgeous. It's my punch of a message wrapped up with a bow. I love how everything is clean and minimalist, a style I've been using in my artworks recently. 

This probably does not qualify as a proper blog post, but I really wanted to share my current thoughts. If anyone is reading...

Our Faults

I come with a few ramblings and never ending thoughts and many quotes. I am one of the many, many teenagers on this planet we call earth. I am also one of the many teenagers who has read 'The Fault in our Stars' by John Green. The master of the universe. No, I kid. Just the brilliant author who captures unfathomable emotions and expresses them with his pen. His sword. In hope to not come across as a another shallow girl stuffing her blog with as many complex words as possible, I shall stop.

The Fault in our Stars is one of my special books. I do not have 'favourite' books, I have 'special' books.

Favourite (adj) by definition is, "preferred to all others of the same kind". Now ask any avid reader, are books all the same? If you are contemplating an answer other than no, .... . Please go read a book.

Continuing, my 'special' books are those which have touched me in a way that is indescribable. Books which provoke unfathomable emotions and thoughts. Books which really let me dig deeper into this life we call 'life' and into myself.

Reading The Fault in our Stars again (I feel unjust if I simply call it 'book'), I come across some of my favourite quotes.

If you have not read or completed reading The Fault in our Stars, I advise to stop reading this blog now and get on to reading only one of the greatest books for all teens. Now these quotes below are in no particular order. Continue.

“Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book. And then there are books like An Imperial Affliction, which you can't tell people about, books so special and rare and yours that advertising your affection feels like betrayal” ” 

“I'm in love with you," he said quietly. 

"Augustus," I said.

"I am," he said. He was staring at me, and I could see the corners of his eyes crinkling. "I'm in love with you, and I'm not in the business of denying myself the simple pleasure of saying true things. I'm in love with you, and I know that love is just a shout into the void, and that oblivion is inevitable, and that we're all doomed and that there will come a day when all our labor has been returned to dust, and I know the sun will swallow the only earth we'll ever have, and I am in love with you.” 

“The pleasure of remembering had been taken from me, because there was no longer anyone to remember with. It felt like losing your co-rememberer meant losing the memory itself, as if the things we'd done were less real and important than they had been hours before.” 

These are my three extracts that I want to share and bring to attention. I get chills and heartache when I read these extracts. To everyone who has read this book, I hope you get them too. How glorious this pain and emotion from "merely" a book can feel. And how I wish I had a relationship like Hazel and Augustus do. Oh the problems of a hopeless romantic..

Here is a song by Stereophonics that I think captures the emotions from The Fault in our Stars. Keep in mind not the video, the s o n g. Well I don't know, I just really like this song. It might have no connection or all the connection. But it is a good song.

No Shade in that Beauty

Lupita Nyong'o is an actress on everyone's sights. She stars in '12 Years A Slave', winner of the best picture in the Oscars. I personally haven't seen it myself, but I have added it to my long list of 'must-see movies'.

In the video below, she speaks of beauty. She speaks of her personal struggles and thoughts from her adolescent years. She speaks of how beauty is not based on the colour of one's skin, as the media suggests.

Struggling with the colour of your skin is what I identify with, and I truly find her speech to be inspiring. And very relatable. I hope that everyone, not only girls struggling with their race or 'colour', listens to Lupita's speech.

And as Lupita says, "I hope that you will feel the validation of your external beauty, but also get to the deeper business of being beautiful inside, and that there is no shade in that beauty"